Clothes Sizing? I Need Help!

Ok, I should be thrilled that my size ten leggings are falling down.  It means they’re now too big for me, and the size eights I bought to replace them seem to fit me well.  All good yes?  Grrr!  Not in my world.  I am not a size eight.  I haven’t been a size eight since I was fourteen/fifteen!  I have not shrunk down to the size I was back then.  I have looked in the mirror, and unless I’ve developed some disorder similar to anorexia, whereby I see my body in a distorted manor, I am not mistaken.  I do not think I am fat.  I’m not.  In fact I rarely feel that I am.  Sure I have fat bloaty days, but who doesn’t right?  But fat is something I am not.  Evidently.  I appear to more of a stick than I am.  That said, if I shop at New Look, I appear to be a size twelve, bordering on fourteen.  For tops anyway.  But as I appear to be an eight at M&S and Sainsbury’s too I might add, I might just buy more stuff from there.  I’m sticking with a size ten at next though.  Belts will hold my jeans up.  But if I’m really a size eight, I need to do some serious pigging out.  Mmm, guilt free chocolate.  Lovely.  After all, I don’t want to look skeletal.  In fact, I would sell my soul for the curves that continue to elude me.  Even when I pig out.  Grrr.  I dread to think what my insides look like.

But one big problem I have when trying on clothes in shops, is that I make the mistake of thinking that something fits me, buying it, and then finding out only through actually wearing it that it is too big.  Jeans do this to me a lot.  Grrr.  Am I the only one who has this trouble?  But then I cause myself more problems by being reluctant to try the smaller size.  But clothes sizing in shops is so random these days, it’s impossible to guess what size you are really.  I certainly don’t buy things before trying them.  Not that this helps me much.  Grrr.  At least I’ve finally figured out what sort of things suit me.  Anything that allows me to fake curves as it happens.  Waist cinching belts are my new best friends.