Ok, today I was back to feeling a bit crap, but to be fair it was grey and rainy all day, and I have another bad cold. On the whole I’ve been feeling pretty positive this week. I’ve got a few Christmas presents for The Child. I kind of know what I’m getting my mum and sisters. I still have no idea about my dad, but that’s not unusual. Still, I am disorganised enough that I don’t think this positive feeling is anything to do with being somewhat sorted presents wise. Besides, I still find the whole Christmas thing a bit something. Sure it’s more fun now because of The Child, but still, I could do without it to be honest.
The Child has been easier this past week I think. Perhaps that’s the reason I’m feeling a bit better. But then again, she might be behaving better as I’m being more like my old self again. She does like her advent calendar though. She gets ready quickly in a morning now so she can open that. Things will probably go back to normal after Christmas. And here comes the negativity again. Yay. But seriously, despite the grey skies related general misery, I’m actually feeling pretty positive. It’s very unlike me. Scary.
It is so nice that The Child is behaving a bit better at the moment though. She’s so much sweeter, and I find spending time with her so much more enjoyable and rewarding. It’s really nice wanting to spend time with her again, instead of dreading the evenings. I still dread the mornings, but only because we have to be up so early.
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