Bakery Girl

I really hope things work out for The Ex with Bakery Girl.  She’s his latest love interest by the way.  She works in the bakery he goes in everyday for his post work cuppa.  She could just be being friendly to a regular customer of course.  And like many other people she does gush over The Child.  Though he reckons she won’t let anyone else serve him and always has to do it herself.  I cannot comment without seeing anything of course.  And naturally The Ex doesn’t want me to accompany him in there as he doesn’t want Bakery Girl to get the wrong impression.  I do hope it works out.  If it does, he’ll be happy for a bit and shouldn’t give me too much grief.  If it doesn’t however, I’m in for a rough time in the not so distant future.  Joyous.

And I’ve still heard nothing from any of the volunteer places.  I’m suddenly remembering what I was told the day I turned up to apply for volunteer jobs.  There are more volunteers than there are volunteer jobs.  Joy.  So I could find getting a volunteer job as unlikely as getting a regular job.  Wonderful.  Maybe I’m just having a bad day.  Maybe I’m just having a bad season.  Maybe I’ll be more positive in spring.  Or when/if anyone actually gets in touch to offer me a volunteer job.  Then again, I might get a waitressing job sooner.  Or I could end up doing something I’ve never done before, like working in a shop.

I need to get out and do something again today.  If I stay in I’ll go insane.  I have too much time to think and dwell on things.  Unfortunately housework doesn’t distract me.  I can dwell on things and stress while doing housework.  In fact, I have some of my most destructive thoughts while doing the washing up or vacuuming.  I need to get a job soon.  Very soon.  Or I might just crack up completely.