Well, I had yet another barny with The Ex today. Now, to be fair it is a stressful time of year, but still. I was grumbling about how I fell like an old woman with all the aches and pains I’ve got at the moment. Yes I have had an endless stream of colds since the arrival of the cold weather. Anyway, he turned to me and said, “Well you look your age.” My age is pushing thirty, so naturally I was thrilled with his assessment. Hmm. I kind of went silent, waiting for him to realise what he’d said and apologise. When no apology was forthcoming I voiced my grievance and then all hell broke loose. Naturally it was all my fault and it was me being awful. All I wanted was a brief apology. All he’d had to do was say sorry and it’d have been fine. But no. I got an earful for taking it the way I did. And he wouldn’t even attempt to understand why I might have taken any offence at all. There was certainly no apology. And so I ended up having to flee the situation. I hate that he can still do this to me. I hate that he can still scare me with his temper. I hate that he still treats me like this, and I hate that he tried to pin all the blame on me, as if his response was reasonable. If I’d made some thoughtless remark like that, I’d have just apologised. I really didn’t make that big a deal of it. And I certainly didn’t deserve the earful I got. And it was in public too. Cringe.
Oh well, hopefully that’ll be it again for a while. Hmm. Then again, if money’s becoming a stress for him again, what with Christmas…
I must be more positive. I must. It’ll all be fine.
I hate this time of year.
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